Grouchy day
One of those days when absolutely everything is an irritant ... particularly other's inept stupidity. If ever I have wanted to retreat to a dark cave, it would be today. So instead of dealing with the annoying, I am creating a blog. I have only a rudimentary grasp of what a blog is, how one becomes a successful blogger, or even why one would post intimate thoughts and personal details. One must create distraction where possible. Perhaps I am after catharsis. God knows I like to hear myself ramble. On my mind today ... I am closing in on the 20th mark of this pregnancy. I cancelled the ultrasound. As tempting as it is to see the little pea in the pod, I legitimately feel that further involvement with that doctor is little more than a spiral of trouble. High intervention, that one ... an alarmist and not an advocate for birth. She is, however, an advocate for highly managed and controlled pregnancies. So I return to the blissful realm of simply caring for myself and baby. No outside involvement. I hope that I feel better in a while. This office is suffocating.